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Today I was on Facebook, telling someone I have free this Saturday. Since she was asking me when am I free in this weekend for physics help.

My physics skills are lame, but for some reason I can do a lot of physics problems... If you are taking classical physics, just watch this course Walter Lewin.
That's beside the point.

But it wasn't her on facebook, but her boyfriend. He seems a bit too protective. saying stuff like "Don't try anything funny." and then goes to a generalization say how guys tries to do w/e. Then he added "Not directed to you or anything."

As a lame person I am, I thought "Hey, that's not directed to me."

After a while, I realized. He IS directing it to me. Wow, I really should talk to people more so I know what they really mean. I read textbook way too much...

Later I knew the reason and I come to fully understand it. I might do the same thing if I'm in his situation.

Problem. I still can't forgive him.

Why is that? I'm a shallow person? Doesn't that mean I might not forgive something I would do?

Clearly I can see why I should not be happy about this, but how come after understanding the situation, I'm still not happy about it?

Maybe because I feel like I was using my time to do something helpful to others and not getting appreciated.

I have a MAT 305 middle term on Monday and my knowledge on the topic are minimal. I do like to have a high GPA because I have a few objectives that require a high GPA.

I'm not like... "Ahh, I have nothing to do everyday, I'm so bored I'm going to offer free physics help to people for my own entertainment". Sure I'm not in any clubs, but I have ACM and Putnam to worry about. I don't even get good sleep because I'm keep thinking about the problem before I fall unconscious.

By generously offering some of my time to help other's with physics, and I get insulted before hand? How can I be happy?

Not happy, reasonable... before the understanding of course...
but after the understanding, I'm still not happy.
I can't tell my brain what to feel. "I'm not suppose to be unhappy because it is just a misunderstanding. Even though it cause me some unhappiness, understanding is what's truly important."

What would make me happy? A apology from him? idk.
If that make me happy, then I will be really confused.
I rarely care how other people thinks, this apology is just a verification of what a specific person believes.

I guess I will forgive him in like a few hours when I'm getting pwned by my MAT 305 text.
Oh I'm skipping 305 like... all the time... lol. HW and other stuff are up online anyway. I'm better by just reading the textbook.
I always goes "I will never forgive someone for doing something" and forgive them in like a day. Is that a good evolutionary trait?
For me, forgiveness is a result of time not understanding.
Interesting.

I lost my calculator, a TI-83+. I took a test on matrices on 4th period, and bring the calculator back to the library, and then I did some study there. In 7th period, when I tries to use the calculator again, it's gone.
The best explanation is I lost my calculator at the library. Because that's the last time I used the calculator.
I inscribed my name on the calculator, so I guess if someone find it will know I lost it.
The next day, I go back to the library, and ask the librarian if there is any calculators around. They said "nope".
Guess someone else found it and took it.
kuzew told me, last time he lost the calculator in school, it's gone forever.
This is not the first time I lost something in school, and last time, it was 2 flash drives, and it's gone, one of them I just brought the day before it's lost.
The worst part was I just put new fresh batteries in the calculator!!! If I know that's going to happen, I would not get new batteries and put it in there!

I always believed, if someone found something someone else lost, they will try to give this thing back. But no... at least, not in our school.
The good part is, I just brought a new calculator, a TI-89, features a CAS. I didn't by the TI-89 Titanium version, I'm in Amazon prime so take off the cost of shipping, it will cost like the same amount of money. But, I like TI-89 better, because I can make it look like TI-83+ with a case change hack. Since TI-83+ is the most popular one around the US, it's will not draw as much attention as TI-84(the only possible hack for TI-89 Titanium) and eventual exposing I'm using TI-89, which is not allowed for some tests, like the ACT.
Can't wait to get it shipped to my hands... and pay my credit card bill.